"When You Know Betta, Do Betta" - Maya Angelo

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Sometimes when everything seems to be falling apart the Universe is turnin' that "janky" into a "thank-key".

"When You Know Betta, Do Betta" - Maya Angelou

I know I promised an excerpt from the chapter that included my take on forgiveness, but my ass apparently has so much resistance to that that I haven’t posted shit since then. I have been pondering that, and WILL finish that chapter and post about it at some point.

I have had many many things coming up for me during these Rona times. It has taken this long for me to get to a point when I’m even close to being able to execute anythang. ANY. THANG.  It’s been a matter of consistent disciplined practice to simply stay sane and simi-peaceful.  

That being said, a memory popped up on my FB page, and it seems particularly apropos. This is a long ass story from many years ago that is a poignant reminder during adverse times. This is from May of 2014, and the “Little” mentioned in this story is about to head to college… as soon as they will let colleges open.
 
Flashback - May 14, 2014:
“So I had this interesting moment last night.  I have one of those showers where the knob to shift temperature and flow of the water are the same.  I live in an ass old building, and in my unit they were always reversed... like you turn it on a little, and it's super hot, and if you turn it on full flow it gets cold.  Me and my little have gotten used to this over the past year and a half, and think nothing of it.  

So Monday we had a major leak.  Water just started pouring from the spout and wouldn't stop no matter what we did... scalding hot.. like steamed up the bathroom raised the temp in the apartment condensed water on all bathroom surfaces...  

Maintenance came in to fix it.  I didn't check the work when they left.  So I go to take a shower, and keep doing what I normally do and all I get is COLD ass water, and it ain't hot enough in LA this week for a cold ass shower.  
I was getting frustrated, and  in my head cussing the maintenance guy out for not checking his work.  Blaming his him for it still not working, shutting off just my hot water to my tub!  ...being irritated that the shit was cold and I had something to do.  “How am I going to get ready in time ?”...blah blah blah, then as I am getting into the cold ass water, 'cause I need to wash my ass even if it's cold; I take a moment, and it occurs to me... "what if he fixed it fixed it?" ...  Like made it actually right..  
 
So then i try the faucet like it's supposed to work... you know... cold first moving to hot... like everyone else's water... :-/  and it works! 
 
I had this awesome beat of gratitude, and a moment of "oh shit I was blaming my little maintenance tech when he didn't do nothin' wrong" ...that's kinda shitty, and THEN I thought... how many times in life, when the universe is making things right... first by pouring hot scalding ass water into my life, and then using the momentum from that to fix the imbalance...  like setting our life to "right" ...meaning, in my world, alignment with something that might really work for us, and we/I in that moment think  "something must be wrong". 

... I KNOW when I moved in I as like "this  shit is janky.. this ain't how it's supposed to be",  but then I was like "fuck it.  I know what it is, and it's fine...", ... but I asked at some point for it to be just...  well, a working faucet. 

I feel like much of life is like that.  We feel that beat of "this ain't right" ask for or picture "right" (for us... it varies) and then we  get a scalding hot leak that looks like everything is falling apart, and when we finally align with "right" so it shows up, and it takes a bit for us to actually realize that's what's happening 
...we curse, blame, get upset, and fight what's happening... 

There is a lot of MAJOR transition going on for everyone I know.. maybe in it, look at which things are things you asked to change, but got used to the way it was, and became complacent... and accepting - which is not a "bad" thing in and of itself... that acceptance and ease is probably what allowed the shift to happen. ... However, no matter what, change gon' come,  and acceptance of that too is necessary…”

Many MANY of the things I was praying for, and manifesting at the time I wrote this are now my physical reality. Some of them came though with in 2 to 3 months of this post.  Sometimes when everything seems to be falling apart the Universe is giving us access to a rebirth or adjustment; turnin' that "janky" into a "thank-key".  A key to access appreciation and gratitude for what we've requested, asked for, and prayed into existence.

I cain’t WAIT to see what the Universe is cookin’ up wit’ this mess. Whhhoooooo Chile.

Stay safe, and give yourself permission to be gentle and compassionate to yourself and others.